Eve, born in 1978, converted to the Catholic Church when she was a twenty year old sophomore at Yale University. Her exposure to religion prior to that included some Jewish influences. The reason why Eve says she wrote this book was to fill a void in this area. While there are a number of books already that address the personal experience of being ‘gay’ and Christian, and written from a perspective that is faithful to historical Christian teaching on sexuality, there currently aren’t any books she found that addressed the idea of vocations for ‘gay’ Catholics.
The first part of the book consists of her personal story, “but then the rest of it goes through a lot of different paths: devoted friendship, service to your family of origin, service to people in need, service to your community — basically a lot of different ways you can have a life that is fruitful, loving, that is surrounded by people who love and care for you.” The above quote came from Eve’s July 3, 2014 book interview with the Jesuit America magazine. For more background on Eve’s ideology also see Coming Out Christian: how faithful homosexual are transforming our churches.
A great deal of what Eve has to say in her book can aptly apply to any Christian seeking to follow God’s call upon their life. Essentially, she is simply offering her input on the 2,000 year old question, ‘How Do I Serve Christ Jesus?’. Particularly, she wants to answer the question, ‘How Do I Serve Christ Jesus as a Gay-Celibate’, and dangerously couched in her 224 page response to that particular question is her idea that being ‘gay’ is a permanent condition; that same-sex attraction is not a deep-seated tendency and an objectively disordered inclination, as the Catholic Church defines it (Cf. CCC. 2358). Eve believes that she is ‘gay’ now and always will be ‘gay’, regardless of the interest of God’s transformative grace to do something else with her, and she wants to foist her personal resolve to her inclination onto the world, just as the 16th century ‘reformulator’ Martin Luther did with his personal resolve towards not feeling good enough to be loved by God. For Luther it was ‘faith alone’ and for Eve it’s ‘gay always’.
In my article Homosexualism: A Creeping Catholic Heresy, I spent a respectable amount of words on this ideology of homosexualism that Eve wants to press forward in this book. I told you then what their agenda was, and told you why writing books and articles was going to be their primary path to get us to buy into this lie of homosexuality being nothing but a natural human orientation. To be clear, homosexualism is where Catholicism diverges into naturalism.
Gay & Catholic: An Exercise in Abortive Intellect & Faith
Many of you who are familiar with my conversion story to the Catholic Church know that I spent almost six years in prison for embezzlement. What I have told very few people up to now, that I am about to tell thousands is that I’ve always suffered from an inclination to steal, for as long as I can remember. When I was five years old I remember being in the grocery story with my Mother and Grandmother and I saw one of those sailboats that float in the bathtub. I took it off the hook and continued walking around the store them. When we arrived at the register to pay for the groceries I just kept it in my hand, as I eyed the cashier to make sure she couldn’t spy it. When we walked out the store, the little white sailboat was still in my hand. When we got to the car and opened up the trunk to put the groceries in, I excitedly said, “Look ma,” as I proudly and triumphantly raised the sailboat in the air. She asked where I got that, and I told her from the store, then Grandma said, “Gwen! Take that back in there,” and Mom took it out of my hand and took it back in the store. I always wondered what would have happened if I had been disciplined at that moment . . . But what a rush that was! Even though that was nearly thirty-seven years ago, I can still remember what a trill it was to walk out those grocery store doors knowing I had just gotten away with something.
I can’t remember a time when I didn’t look for opportunities to get away with taking something that didn’t belong to me. Through every age; through high school, through college, though my twenties, I was always looking for that rush I only got from stealing. Sometimes it was something bold like a television or a computer or a man’s girlfriend or wife; other times it was a snickers or a can of spray-paint. Mind you, I didn’t grow up in poverty. I wanted for nothing as a kid. I always worked, even in college. Stealing was just what made me feel good and it came natural to me. Then, when embezzling money from my employer became something I felt I didn’t have control over anymore, I did everything I could possibly think of to stop, but nothing permanently worked for me until October 31, 2003 when I got down on my knees, even though I was an Agnostic, and told God that if He is real, then He should be able to help me stop stealing money. From November 1, 2003 on, I never again felt that same inclination to steal that had plagued me my entire life. I had no appetite to procure that rush that came from getting away with taking something that didn’t belong to me. In fact, I still get of hint of nausea at the even at the thought of stealing. That’s God grace at work!
Now, I don’t pretend to be able to relate completely to having an inclination towards same-sex attraction as some have had all their life. Neither do I pretend to presuppose God’s grace to work as others as instantly as it did for me. Sometimes God delivers people from their trials, and other times His grace just carries them through it or around it, but His work is always accomplished on His perfect scheduled, and not on ours.
I know this one thing as well; that Jesus is not a liar. He didn’t lie when He said “Ask and your shall receive, seek and you shall find, knock and the door will be opened to you” (Matthew 7:7). He didn’t lie when He said, “If you ask anything of me in my name, I will do it” (John 14:14). He didn’t lie when He said, “Those who persevere to the end will be saved” (Matthew 24:13).
So whatever you are going through and however long you have been going through it, don’t give up on God. Giving up on God’s grace is an exercise in abortion. You’ve committed an abortion of your faith and your intellect when come to believe that God is done with conforming you into the image of His Son. I beg you! Do not give up on God, because He has not given up on you!